I am sure we all have them, promises we can’t hold on to.  Mary Poppins calls them ‘pie crust promises, easily made and easily broken.’  Some were not so easily broken though.  Some of the promises are still there just changed maybe or altered.  Or maybe, sadly, we lost the ones we made promises with.  Maybe we are scared that they never meant the same thing to them.  Maybe our hearts held on to the promises and still honor them, but life changes us and leads us in different directions from our ‘heart promises’.
I have an old friend I recently dreamt of for no obvious reason and then had them on the mind.  Over the years I have always thought of them needed them if I am being honest, but I was scared to find them.  Scared for so many reasons.  Because I’m not the same person I was years ago, but at the same time I am.  Because I am afraid I never really meant the same to them.  Because I am ashamed of the promises it appears I broke to always be there and to wait because I don’t know how to say I didn’t really break them…it just looks that way on the outside.  Because what if finding them and being reminded of all those promises said and unsaid are remembered….what if they mean everything or worse never meant anything.
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” You don’t need to promise me the moon and the stars; just promise me you will stand under them with me forever” – Unknown
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